This is a photo of my belly 5 days after surgery. Pretty colors, huh? It is getting better every day and I am feeling pretty well today. Except for the emotional side of it. WHAT HAVE I DONE????
It is really sad that the high point of my day is to chew my multivitamin (which I'll have to do every day for the rest of my life). Chewing is such a pleasure after being on liquids and thick liquids since Sunday night. I am getting that it is all about the mouth feel. When we are babies, we long to have something in our mouths, so we turn to the most convenient source--a thumb--unless a pacifier is provided. It feels so comforting to have something in our mouths as much as possible. Water doesn't cut it.
The hard part so far is smelling good smells and knowing that they are off limits. I hide in my room a good bit of the time to escape watching people eat and smelling the good foods. Rylea cooked last night and I wanted to try it so bad so I could tell her she did a good job. I just wanted something to chew on so bad last night. I woke up hungry this morning and it was depressing to know that all I could have was yet another protein shake. I put some banana in it and put it in the blender. At lunch I took a can of minestrone soup and put it in the blender and had a V-8. That was soooo satisfying and hasn't seemed to irritate my stomach at all. I followed that with a protein drink after 30 minutes. I got my protein and my veggies! How I miss salads. I understand it will be a good long time before my stomach will tolerate those.
Oh, by the way, I am updating past posts with my "before" pictures. I will also have a new picture taken later for my 1 week out pic. I can't believe how disgusting I look!!! I have avoided looking at myself in a mirror, or having pictures taken of me for years. No wonder I hurt so much and my body is breaking down with the diabetes. I didn't really acknowledge how big I had gotten.
I am down 7 lb.s to 243 this morning. What a great start!
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