I am in such a blue funk right now. I haven't lost any weight in two weeks, even though I don't eat poorly. O.k. I take that back. I had a sliver of cheesecake this evening, because I feel so bad. That is the wrong thing to do, for the wrong reasons. I've tried to do this the right way. Friday, I had Chinese food at Panda Express and threw up all the way home. I tried to eat just the chicken, but something didn't agree with me. Yesterday, I ate a slice of lunchmeat ham, a couple of pieces of imitation crabmeat and a spoonful of beans and threw up for over an hour. Lunch today was one chicken tender at Raising Canes and 5 french fries. Tonight I made a curried chicken and that stayed down just fine, even though it had jalepenos in it and was very spicy. So what is going on? Other than what I've written, I've had the protein shakes--mostly because I didn't want to throw up anymore. I don't throw up my medications. I'm very confused.
Another problem I am having is that my feet hurt, it's hot outside, and I am not walking every day. I have been in the pool about every other day, and I go shopping (walking in the store) a few times a week. I am not lazy. I have been in to work four times in the last week, which is also a lot of moving around. I doubt that I will ever be a regular at a gym, or exercise class, but I do what I can. It just isn't working. Frustration is paramount in my mind today. I feel like such a failure!!! I am going to call the surgeon's office tomorrow and see what I need to do. This isn't going the way I had planned. What have I done????
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